Today I went to eat with a friend of mind. It was nothing different about the lunch we were chit-chatting, nothing general. But as conversations sometimes go, we hit upon a sensitive subject for me. I was evasive because I was not ready or willing to have the conversation that was taking form. It was not lost on my friend. So, I was pushed, challenged, and questioned on every answer, excuse given for my hesitation to not go public with the call upon my life. I did not think the atmosphere was the right setting for the emotional upheaval that would surely result, and I did not see, I was being understood. But as I drove home, I was a little angry why she did not see, I then realized something, the answer, the advice provided was right, even if I could not see there was comprehension of what I was trying to say; seek to understand before being understood and see life situation change….It did not change what she said for me to do was the truth; funny thing is I already knew this…lol… I now have to apologize, and thank her all at the same time….(I have come a long way because there was time, I would have done neither, and rationalized it to be right, okay, and the best thing for me because I did not want to think the person was smarter than me. Now, I do not care; it helps me on my path, so be it…smiling)…And then it hit me, how many times do we do not pay attention to the right answer in front of us because we believe, we are not understood. The person does not get me. The answer is far too simple to be correct; I am too complex for this. See, it does not matter if they get you; the right answer is the right answer. But we have been so consumed with what we have been rolling around in our head, or devoted to that one objective, without surrendering to the moment and truly absorbing what is being provide; a teachable moment…wink… We fail to realize, just because they have no frame of reference or context from which you come, or totally understand your struggle or dilemma, it does not mean the right answer cannot be given. We all so fond of the old adage – out of the mouth of babes, truth speaks- the babes, children do not understand, have the frame of references to grasp the complexity of the problem, but they still provide the right answer, or give the next logical step. Now, we just have to be humble and wise enough to submit to the truth spoken. I am so grateful for the people in my life who are willing to tell me the truth, to help me to see what I did not see….kind like this… The Book of Eli movie…
There have been families not speaking, husbands/wives not speaking, friends separated as a result of seeing this movie, and dynamics of friendship groups change because of this movie. All because they cannot decide, or agree if he was blind or not. It is amazing what we will get hooked on, and the main issue goes over their heads. Whether he was blind or not does not matter? Asked yourself, what would have changed about the movie, if he was blind? What would have made more sense in the movie, if he had sight? To both of these question, I say, nothing because the movie was about faith, and how we sometime are so focus on the mission, we miss true meaning. We too many time get absorb in the objective because it is the obvious. Yet, it is not about us, but it is for us as the vessel to surrender, not get consume with the logical conclusion we have rolling around in our heads…Elijah got consumed with the big stuff, he almost missed the ‘voice’ …1 Kings 19:11-13 - Then He said, "Go out and stand on the mountain in the LORD's presence." At that moment, the LORD passed by. A great and mighty wind was tearing at the mountains and was shattering cliffs before the LORD, but the LORD was not in the wind. After the wind there was an earthquake, but the LORD was not in the earthquake. After the earthquake there was a fire, but the LORD was not in the fire. And after the fire there was a voice, a soft whisper. When Elijah heard [it], he wrapped his face in his mantle and went out and stood at the entrance of the cave. Suddenly, a voice came to him and said, "What are you doing here, Elijah?" (NIV)…At the end of the movie, like Elijah, Eli was liberated mentally, emotionally, and completed his task at hand with God awesome power; that which he was called to do…wink
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Truth reveals as time returns...
A power beyond measure requires a protector without equal. From the movie The Bulletproof Monk
Courageous Leaderships means one must develop the following (from the book The Maxwell Daily Reader by John C. Maxwell)….
1. Convictions that are stronger than my fears.
2. Vision that is clearer than my doubts.
3. Spiritual sensitivity that is louder than popular opinion.
4. Self-esteem that is deeper than self-protection.
5. Appreciation for discipline that is greater than my desire for leisure.
6. Dissatisfaction that is more forceful than the status quo.
7. Poise that is more unshakeable than panic.
8. Risk taking that is stronger than safety seeking.
9. Right actions that are more robust than rationalization.
10. A desire to see potential reached more than to see people appeased.
I read the above list during my morning devotion and within this list I innately see with my heart, the greatest battle we will ever fight is the one with self. Actualizing these serious simple statements, allows me to acquire this revelation - if we are to meet our expectations in life and exceed the potential we know, we must change our attitude toward challenges we encounter in life. Manage our emotions better, not looking at what will make me feel better or what is good for me, but rather what is good for us in the long haul and the entire group. Sharing with others, in the form they understand, the lessons you have learned from your teachable moments, rather than hoarding them to look good or better to them. Only then can we see the possibility and the opportunity lying within the challenge before us, and let the teachable moments teach us; we apply them. We are then able to prioritize and focus on adding value to people, which ultimately adds value to us as individuals.
Adding value to others, believe it or not, is the best investment one could ever make in this life. When we do, we begin to see the light and the call that lead and kept our Saviour inspite of the taunts, the hardship, and the hurt. It is always quite difficult to see the exactness of each of our journey in this life, and how it has just the right mixture of chaos, triumph, peace, and victories to help us to become our true self, and to be the catalyst for others to live their truth with the focus on the bigger picture, or the significance of helping another to act on their dream. You do not always have to be the one, you could be the one before the one, or the platform on which the one stands; both are significant positions that matter. We just have to be willing to accept our position in God's plan for our life. It will not always be what we desire, what others think, or fit into the popular opinion of what we should do, but it the only path that allows you to live authentically....wink
Courageous Leaderships means one must develop the following (from the book The Maxwell Daily Reader by John C. Maxwell)….
1. Convictions that are stronger than my fears.
2. Vision that is clearer than my doubts.
3. Spiritual sensitivity that is louder than popular opinion.
4. Self-esteem that is deeper than self-protection.
5. Appreciation for discipline that is greater than my desire for leisure.
6. Dissatisfaction that is more forceful than the status quo.
7. Poise that is more unshakeable than panic.
8. Risk taking that is stronger than safety seeking.
9. Right actions that are more robust than rationalization.
10. A desire to see potential reached more than to see people appeased.
I read the above list during my morning devotion and within this list I innately see with my heart, the greatest battle we will ever fight is the one with self. Actualizing these serious simple statements, allows me to acquire this revelation - if we are to meet our expectations in life and exceed the potential we know, we must change our attitude toward challenges we encounter in life. Manage our emotions better, not looking at what will make me feel better or what is good for me, but rather what is good for us in the long haul and the entire group. Sharing with others, in the form they understand, the lessons you have learned from your teachable moments, rather than hoarding them to look good or better to them. Only then can we see the possibility and the opportunity lying within the challenge before us, and let the teachable moments teach us; we apply them. We are then able to prioritize and focus on adding value to people, which ultimately adds value to us as individuals.
Adding value to others, believe it or not, is the best investment one could ever make in this life. When we do, we begin to see the light and the call that lead and kept our Saviour inspite of the taunts, the hardship, and the hurt. It is always quite difficult to see the exactness of each of our journey in this life, and how it has just the right mixture of chaos, triumph, peace, and victories to help us to become our true self, and to be the catalyst for others to live their truth with the focus on the bigger picture, or the significance of helping another to act on their dream. You do not always have to be the one, you could be the one before the one, or the platform on which the one stands; both are significant positions that matter. We just have to be willing to accept our position in God's plan for our life. It will not always be what we desire, what others think, or fit into the popular opinion of what we should do, but it the only path that allows you to live authentically....wink
Monday, July 12, 2010
The work, preparation has been done….now we must act…
"The path is unsafe. The place is unknown. The journey is unbelievable. " from the movie Forbidden Kingdom.
I am still moving in my weight lost journey but I guess it is not really about the weight lost, as it is about the lifestyle change to maintain a healthy weight and the journey to get there. As we get older, we have to worker harder to get things to stay put…lol…like we would like. But like with so many things in this journey, I have learned we must live in the now, not in what use to be, or what we wish to be because we discount what is now and worked already done. Realizing this made me think of the how we desire to change, but we are unwilling to take an objective stock of who we are really, where we are, the preparation done, and what we see as negotiables in our life. We all have gifts and talents to be a leader in various arenas – formal and informal. Our circle of influence is far greater than we think, or even can imagine. Yet, we fall short of our and others expectations once we actually get in the real world, put ourselves in the arena, field, turf, etc where we know, we belong, and actualize the many talents and gifts within us. Why is that? Failure or less than stellar results we were expecting, come about because the failure to take a true objective stock of self. See, we have not decided to trade momentary satisfaction, or what is good for the moment, for what is good and satisfactory for the long haul. Without willing to accept and do, we will never meet or exceed the expectations of ourself and/or others. Something we must do at any level, regardless of any formal leadership role if we desire to reach our potential and beyond that is within us. Because we are role-models whether we desire to be or not, and we influence others whether we try to or not. Thus, to meet and exceed our expectations starts with intentional incremental small steps in our decision making. See with in my weight lost journey, I realize I will never be the size I use to be, or look like others my age but I can be comfortable being me and develop me to be my best, and know it is an process not an event. I will have to learn moderation, to let go of things and people that are hindrance to my progression; difficult yes, but not impossible. But more importantly, I can carry the confidence within me, which puts me in precision syncopated rhythms for my life. These rhythms in my life allow me to utilize my gifts and talents to create innovative steps for introductions and exits with smooth transition no matter the environment, the atmosphere, or the circumstance.
We just have to believe what is not, can be if we believe what has been put in our spirit and not be afraid because it is not popular. See the work, the preparation has been done, and now we just need to act on it…. Eze. 37:13;9-10 (NIV)- The hand of the LORD was upon me, and he brought me out by the Spirit of the LORD and set me in the middle of a valley; it was full of bones. He led me back and forth among them, and I saw a great many bones on the floor of the valley, bones that were very dry. He asked me, "Son of man, can these bones live?" I said, "O Sovereign LORD, you alone know." … Then he said to me, "Prophesy to the breath; prophesy, son of man, and say to it, 'This is what the Sovereign LORD says: Come from the four winds, O breath, and breathe into these slain, that they may live.' " So I prophesied as he commanded me, and breath entered them; they came to life and stood up on their feet—a vast army.
I am still moving in my weight lost journey but I guess it is not really about the weight lost, as it is about the lifestyle change to maintain a healthy weight and the journey to get there. As we get older, we have to worker harder to get things to stay put…lol…like we would like. But like with so many things in this journey, I have learned we must live in the now, not in what use to be, or what we wish to be because we discount what is now and worked already done. Realizing this made me think of the how we desire to change, but we are unwilling to take an objective stock of who we are really, where we are, the preparation done, and what we see as negotiables in our life. We all have gifts and talents to be a leader in various arenas – formal and informal. Our circle of influence is far greater than we think, or even can imagine. Yet, we fall short of our and others expectations once we actually get in the real world, put ourselves in the arena, field, turf, etc where we know, we belong, and actualize the many talents and gifts within us. Why is that? Failure or less than stellar results we were expecting, come about because the failure to take a true objective stock of self. See, we have not decided to trade momentary satisfaction, or what is good for the moment, for what is good and satisfactory for the long haul. Without willing to accept and do, we will never meet or exceed the expectations of ourself and/or others. Something we must do at any level, regardless of any formal leadership role if we desire to reach our potential and beyond that is within us. Because we are role-models whether we desire to be or not, and we influence others whether we try to or not. Thus, to meet and exceed our expectations starts with intentional incremental small steps in our decision making. See with in my weight lost journey, I realize I will never be the size I use to be, or look like others my age but I can be comfortable being me and develop me to be my best, and know it is an process not an event. I will have to learn moderation, to let go of things and people that are hindrance to my progression; difficult yes, but not impossible. But more importantly, I can carry the confidence within me, which puts me in precision syncopated rhythms for my life. These rhythms in my life allow me to utilize my gifts and talents to create innovative steps for introductions and exits with smooth transition no matter the environment, the atmosphere, or the circumstance.
We just have to believe what is not, can be if we believe what has been put in our spirit and not be afraid because it is not popular. See the work, the preparation has been done, and now we just need to act on it…. Eze. 37:13;9-10 (NIV)- The hand of the LORD was upon me, and he brought me out by the Spirit of the LORD and set me in the middle of a valley; it was full of bones. He led me back and forth among them, and I saw a great many bones on the floor of the valley, bones that were very dry. He asked me, "Son of man, can these bones live?" I said, "O Sovereign LORD, you alone know." … Then he said to me, "Prophesy to the breath; prophesy, son of man, and say to it, 'This is what the Sovereign LORD says: Come from the four winds, O breath, and breathe into these slain, that they may live.' " So I prophesied as he commanded me, and breath entered them; they came to life and stood up on their feet—a vast army.
Friday, July 9, 2010
We all have difficulties in life
We all have difficulties in life. They are opportunities to enrich, enhance, and to strengthen us, not moments to defeat us. See consequences of our choices can bring about great deeds which transcends time, space, and linger to touch soul in future generations. Because despite our environment, it is our choice to see the pass the finality disposition, outlook to understand ‘this too shall pass’, or to get in stuck in the disposition of doom and gloom that defeat us. It does not mean you deny the reality of the situation, or the environment you are in, but you choose to see beyond to the bigger and the better in the not too distant shores. For the greatest tragedy of life is not that we do not accomplish, but that we almost. We come to the door of a breakthrough, and yet we do not go through but turn around, failing to see the dream, vision realized in our life. So, the sooner we understand life is a journey with many small events that teach, keep, and bestow wisdom on the diligent soul who seeks the interwoven truth found from man’s experience but beyond man understanding, and only found in God’s truth, the sooner we shall see and have peace. However, this is not an easy task to accomplish. One must be willing to see beyond your own experience, look outside one’s frame of reference, and understand refusing to compromise is become the branch that cannot bend, is broken and burned. For life is not lived in the moments of I am great, I am better, I am the smarter but in the moments of humility and grace because it takes more strength to be humble and give grace, than it does to do the others. On any given day you can be best, but no one can take away your gift of grace, your presentation of humility, or your willing to see beyond self. Yet, it takes one who does let the difficulties of life dictate one growth, but use them as stepping stones to improvement.
I started this journey myself, and it started with weight but it beginning to be so much more. As my body is finding areas of inflexibility, I finding this too exist in me. But like the body, I yield and seek how to make it flexible, and more I work on me, it irritate the H@#%! out of me when others fail to do the same because of the inability to see their inflexibility. I am learning too quickly, slow, easy, determine, grace, faith, and a transformative mindset rewards us will peace...So, I remember this verse below as I continue my weight lost journey, and I hope you too see where you are inflexible, and begin to change; I have...
“Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.”- Eph. 3:20-21 (NIV)
I started this journey myself, and it started with weight but it beginning to be so much more. As my body is finding areas of inflexibility, I finding this too exist in me. But like the body, I yield and seek how to make it flexible, and more I work on me, it irritate the H@#%! out of me when others fail to do the same because of the inability to see their inflexibility. I am learning too quickly, slow, easy, determine, grace, faith, and a transformative mindset rewards us will peace...So, I remember this verse below as I continue my weight lost journey, and I hope you too see where you are inflexible, and begin to change; I have...
“Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.”- Eph. 3:20-21 (NIV)
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
The opportunity and the power of our choice..
We choose everyday, for everything, and too many times we act if what we are doing was forced upon us. When actuality, we choose, whether the choice came from a place of fear, insecurity or confidence, we chose. Therefore, we are responsible and accountable. See we choose to live miserably, or not, we choose to be forgiven or not, we choose to live authentically or not, and we choose to keep the faith or not. So, it now time to own this true, we choose, and choose from and with our hearts...see the song below it provides a powerful affirmation of just how powerful our choice is!
I Choose by India Arie~ lyrics below
Because you never know where life is gonna take you
and you can't change where you've been.
But today, I have the opportunity to choose.
Here am I now looking at 30 and I got so much to say.
I gotta get this off of my chest, I gotta let it go today.
I was always too concerned about what everybody would think.
But I can't live for everybody, I gotta live my life for me.(Yeah)
I pitched a fork in the road of my life and ain't nothing gonna happen unless I decide.
(And I choose) to be the best that I can be.
(I choose) to be authentic in everything I do.
My past don't dictate who I am. I choose. (Yeah)
I done been through some painful things I thought that I would never make it through.
Filled up with shame from the top of my head to the soles of my shoes.
I put myself in so many chaotic circumstances, but by the grace of God I've been given so many second chances.
But today I decided to let it all go. I'm dropping these bags, I'm making room for my joy.
(And I choose) to be the best that I can be.
(I choose) to be authentic in everything I do.
My past don't dictate who I am. I choose.
Because you never know where life is gonna take you and you can't change where you've been.
But today, I have the opportunity to choose. (Hey ey)
I used to have guilt about why things happen they way they did cuz life is gone do what it do.
And everyday, I have the opportunity to choose.
From this day forward I'm going to be exactly who I am.
I don't need to change the way that I live just to get a man. (NO!)
I even had a talk with my mama and I told her the day I'm grown,
"from this day forward, every decision I make will be my own." And hey!
(And I choose) to be the best that I can be.
(I choose) to be courageous in everything I do.
My past don't dictate who I am. I choose.
(And I choose) to be the best that I can be.
(I choose) to be authentic in everything I do.
My past don't dictate who I am. I choose.
Because you never know where life is gonna take you and you can't change where you've been.
But today, I have the opportunity to choose. (Hey ey)
I used to have guilt about why things happen they way they did cuz life is gone do what it do.
And everyday, I have the opportunity to choose.
I Choose by India Arie~ lyrics below
Because you never know where life is gonna take you
and you can't change where you've been.
But today, I have the opportunity to choose.
Here am I now looking at 30 and I got so much to say.
I gotta get this off of my chest, I gotta let it go today.
I was always too concerned about what everybody would think.
But I can't live for everybody, I gotta live my life for me.(Yeah)
I pitched a fork in the road of my life and ain't nothing gonna happen unless I decide.
(And I choose) to be the best that I can be.
(I choose) to be authentic in everything I do.
My past don't dictate who I am. I choose. (Yeah)
I done been through some painful things I thought that I would never make it through.
Filled up with shame from the top of my head to the soles of my shoes.
I put myself in so many chaotic circumstances, but by the grace of God I've been given so many second chances.
But today I decided to let it all go. I'm dropping these bags, I'm making room for my joy.
(And I choose) to be the best that I can be.
(I choose) to be authentic in everything I do.
My past don't dictate who I am. I choose.
Because you never know where life is gonna take you and you can't change where you've been.
But today, I have the opportunity to choose. (Hey ey)
I used to have guilt about why things happen they way they did cuz life is gone do what it do.
And everyday, I have the opportunity to choose.
From this day forward I'm going to be exactly who I am.
I don't need to change the way that I live just to get a man. (NO!)
I even had a talk with my mama and I told her the day I'm grown,
"from this day forward, every decision I make will be my own." And hey!
(And I choose) to be the best that I can be.
(I choose) to be courageous in everything I do.
My past don't dictate who I am. I choose.
(And I choose) to be the best that I can be.
(I choose) to be authentic in everything I do.
My past don't dictate who I am. I choose.
Because you never know where life is gonna take you and you can't change where you've been.
But today, I have the opportunity to choose. (Hey ey)
I used to have guilt about why things happen they way they did cuz life is gone do what it do.
And everyday, I have the opportunity to choose.
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
We all have struggles, the question is – how are you handling them….
We all have struggles; no matter the strong discipline, successful, and spiritual person outwardly shown, and it matters who is in your inner circle….The difference in most is not that they do not have struggles, but how they manage them. For me, my struggle is about the call upon my life. It also frightens me knowing,, and not knowing whether or not I will stay sane and get caught up in depression, or get the big head and forget my focus, purpose . I cannot speak for anyone else, but the call, gift upon my life is ever-present, pressing upon my soul, resting upon my heart, plaguing my mind, and even when I tried to hide it, it rears its head unabashed and strong – saying I am here. Admitting to myself, it was not anything new, and it has always been with me, shook me at my very core and tears flow like a babbling brook without an off switch. Yet, I realized God favored me, even when I did not owned it, it owned me and HE kept me. So, I decided to fall into my destiny, embrace it, and let it live as is. I have learned what life could not teach, and what parents was afraid to tell, time will, if you are truly seeking… I do not have to tell anyone what it is, or answer questions about it, it arrives and people accept it because it is genuine; no fabrication or façade. Then, I found people select themselves in or out of my life as a result of it. I cannot say this is always easy because it reaches all aspects of my life (family, friends, loved one, mentors, co-workers, no one is exempt) who leave or disconnect themselves from me. I have cried a many tears wondering if I did something that was an affront and disrespectful to them; then I realize there is no compromise when to come to being in your truth but you must do so with humility, grace, unmerit favor, and forgiveness. However, I have found more peace once I refuse to hide what is within me. The truth of my destiny own, and it seemed my whole life exhale; and it was good. Living my truth grants me less struggle, and authentic peace. I am now able to love more openly, earnestly, and bend but not break. Those who love me, love me as me. They see me, as me and know my disposition, personality are innate traits that are true to me, not one of the many sides of me. I am shown, I see, and I know what Solomon meant with this verse Ecc. 1:18 ~ For in much wisdom is much grief: and he that increases knowledge increases sorrow. (AKJV)~ I just have to remember a balance is needed to keep me focus, and His grace is sufficient for me, when I am weak, He is strong.
But more importantly, I no longer struggle to be the person, the role model and/or the leader others are expecting me to be. I stop living in the shadows of my true self, and realize my deepest fear was, not any more, I am powerful beyond reasonable and logical measure. For I have seen what happens when I am shining, or drowning in my darkness, and it is a stark difference, I see the former when I live in my truth. And yes, Virginia, we are all meant to shine in some way, and no one should be counted out just because they are different. Like a team is made up of different positions, and they all must work their position for the team to achieve, thus we should not count anyone out. We all matter!
But more importantly, I no longer struggle to be the person, the role model and/or the leader others are expecting me to be. I stop living in the shadows of my true self, and realize my deepest fear was, not any more, I am powerful beyond reasonable and logical measure. For I have seen what happens when I am shining, or drowning in my darkness, and it is a stark difference, I see the former when I live in my truth. And yes, Virginia, we are all meant to shine in some way, and no one should be counted out just because they are different. Like a team is made up of different positions, and they all must work their position for the team to achieve, thus we should not count anyone out. We all matter!
Monday, June 21, 2010
Me Being me
I have written below for all of us, who are and have been afraid to live their truth because results in discomfort for others, friends, family, and foe. So, I hope you all are encouraged by it...
Me being Me
Me being me is not an attempt to harm you, but to help me. It is me living my truth to find peace within for me. It is my attempt to reduce my stress, remove unnecessary anger bottled up inside and projected on others, so that I can stop my self-loathing. If living my truth offends you, or makes you feel insecure, it is not me that hurts you; it is you. See, me letting my light shine, my truth live out-loud should not create a disturbance for you; it should free you to be, you. If it does not, then it is your doing, not mind. See as we live our truth, I live my truth, you should see it is okay to live yours. All is needed from you, is for you to walk beyond your fears, release the chains of insecurities you have grown accustomed to, and begin loving person God made. Not trying to be what someone desires or think you should be, because you will never satisfy anyone trying to please them, and you will have a slow death of self-destruction. We cannot change to meet someone else’s expectation, if it means being less than authentic to who we really are. Being the quick change artist that accommodates all people for every circumstances or situations never finds peace, and cripples one’s self-worth.
The fact of the matter is, and at the end of the day, your living a lie imprisons not only you, but those who are connected to you, and look up to you. It puts others in a quandary when it comes to connecting with you, for they see the madness, the confusion in you, but your denial leaves them helpless and disconnected from you. Your refusal to live your truth also impedes others from their growth, because are a role model, desire to be or not, look up to whether you know it or not, and it creates a ripple effect in lives you were not aware. You must understand you affect others, unknowingly, by your presence, your words, and your actions. We all want to be affirmed for doing, but also for being who were are as a person, regardless of gender, race, socioeconomic status, physical appearance, relationships, etc. to be guided, nurtured, loved, guarded, and desired but none of this can happen, if you are living a lie because the lens you see life through is distorted by fear and insecurity. While living your truth frees you, and all that has been confined by your lies, hypocrisies, fears, insecurities, and yes, anger. It allows you to no longer be afraid to be honest about you, or how others see you; you are a beautiful person. You complete the complex, intricate rainbow God fashioned in this world with each unique personality created. He made you to be a part of, when He said, let you be, and out of his love, you were meant to always shines. Therefore, me being me should always help you, not hurt because it frees you with loving warmth not found in anywhere else….
Me being Me
Me being me is not an attempt to harm you, but to help me. It is me living my truth to find peace within for me. It is my attempt to reduce my stress, remove unnecessary anger bottled up inside and projected on others, so that I can stop my self-loathing. If living my truth offends you, or makes you feel insecure, it is not me that hurts you; it is you. See, me letting my light shine, my truth live out-loud should not create a disturbance for you; it should free you to be, you. If it does not, then it is your doing, not mind. See as we live our truth, I live my truth, you should see it is okay to live yours. All is needed from you, is for you to walk beyond your fears, release the chains of insecurities you have grown accustomed to, and begin loving person God made. Not trying to be what someone desires or think you should be, because you will never satisfy anyone trying to please them, and you will have a slow death of self-destruction. We cannot change to meet someone else’s expectation, if it means being less than authentic to who we really are. Being the quick change artist that accommodates all people for every circumstances or situations never finds peace, and cripples one’s self-worth.
The fact of the matter is, and at the end of the day, your living a lie imprisons not only you, but those who are connected to you, and look up to you. It puts others in a quandary when it comes to connecting with you, for they see the madness, the confusion in you, but your denial leaves them helpless and disconnected from you. Your refusal to live your truth also impedes others from their growth, because are a role model, desire to be or not, look up to whether you know it or not, and it creates a ripple effect in lives you were not aware. You must understand you affect others, unknowingly, by your presence, your words, and your actions. We all want to be affirmed for doing, but also for being who were are as a person, regardless of gender, race, socioeconomic status, physical appearance, relationships, etc. to be guided, nurtured, loved, guarded, and desired but none of this can happen, if you are living a lie because the lens you see life through is distorted by fear and insecurity. While living your truth frees you, and all that has been confined by your lies, hypocrisies, fears, insecurities, and yes, anger. It allows you to no longer be afraid to be honest about you, or how others see you; you are a beautiful person. You complete the complex, intricate rainbow God fashioned in this world with each unique personality created. He made you to be a part of, when He said, let you be, and out of his love, you were meant to always shines. Therefore, me being me should always help you, not hurt because it frees you with loving warmth not found in anywhere else….
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