Things I have learned as life goes on, and I continue my journey...

1. We controls our thoughts, our words, and our actions
2. We really do reap what we sow in this life
3. People who act within or from their fears and insecurities are dangerous people
4. Prioritization without passion is mix bag of outcome
5. We choose everyday what is important to us with our behavior
6. We draw what we are, and we repel what we are not
7. People will select in or out of your life base on your actions, not words
8. Everyone with you are not always there to support you, but the cause; when the cause is gone, so are they
9. There are always going to be those who speak ill about you, just do not feed the fire
10. Forgiveness give restoration; in other words it restore what is right and best, not what was....
“For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.”- Ephesians 2:10 NIV

Dear Convince a note to myself;

I am not sure what to think right now. I made a choice that will forever change my life. I accept it, however, I walk with a healthy fear coupled with and emotional awareness this a spiritual awakening that unsettles and settles me simultaneously. Yet, the trepidations holds me tight and there is no one to talk to, and tell myself trust God. I know God is there but a human touch intervention is what I desire; i tell myself trust God. I keep playing over and over in my head- hands are extended but the person is not person. Thus, the physical manifestation was lost in parallel play. 
The parallel play is scary, but it is not for us to understand why, I should look for the lesson within the experience at each exchange and step; it is not an event but a journey. I know going through this will develop skills needed to help me see more expansively, and with forgiving heart lens; taking care of the little things, and the bigs will be much easier to undertake. Although, this is good, I too ask if this cup could be remove...but not my will, Thy will be done. Then I realized, He hands are on me and blessing, that favor comes with unmerited favor, grace.  For I realized, I am the instrument, vessel, tool like the object used but I cause the effect. I am directed, and I yield to the Author and finisher of my faith. As long as I do this all will be provided for me... I just have to trust and obey... I chosen, what about you.