We say we love the LORD…but do we trust (h)im

We say, we love the Lord but we questioned his plan for our lives when we decide, we know better and become disobedient. We struggle with the experiences we go through, or fight with the submission required to rise; all because we do not trust. Yes, I said trust, it is something we all struggle with because we desire to be in the knowing. However, let us be honest, if God showed us what we would have, or would have to go through, we would be no darn good for nobody!...


We say, I love the Lord, and he heard my cry but we fail to trust him because He does not see things, like we see things. He does not subscribe to the ideology, we find palatable and appropriate. Yet, we are asked over and over again, do you trust me while you love me? We for some reason think trusting and loving are synonymous; it is not, but it should be. See, loving someone means to have an affection shown toward someone, while trusting is the confidence in the person certainty to do the thing s/he say they will…Hmmmm that is GOD!…Now, we love God but we do not trust God because if we did, we would not start wondering if he would really provide, and does what is best for us, and our good before we seek his advice. We would not try to do His job, or correct His plan for us, or chastise his children because he was not timely enough for us. God is never late, but He does not work on our time. Although, we know this when the thing is happening to another person, we forget it when it is happening to us. Yet, we are quick to repeat these verses in the bible without understanding what they mean – Hab. 2:3 - …Though it linger, wait for it…Jer. 29:11-… For I know the plans I have for you… Psalm 139:13 - … you knit me together in my mother's womb…-; Job 31:15-… Did not he who made me in the womb make them…- ; and Jer. 1:5 -… before you were born I set you apart…..So, the next time you say, Lord I love you, check yourself and see if you are just loving on God, or have you really relied on him to do just what He said; even the day is hard, the vision is week, the wounds are fresh, the struggle is excruciating, and you are in a wasteland experience…just remember and back on this….2 Cor. 12-7-10 ‘Because of the surpassing greatness of the revelations, for this reason, to keep me from exalting myself, there was given me a thorn in the flesh, a messenger of Satan to torment me--to keep me from exalting myself! Concerning this I implored the Lord three times that it might leave me. And He has said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness " Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me. Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ's sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong (NASB).

It is time to be the change

Learning to see your experiences directs you to your destiny and imperative to your peace, helps you to grow. Understanding God will not reveal more to you, until you are willing to obey truths with you currently will stop you from wondering how long, or when. Realizing time is precious and not a recyclable good, gives you a perspective that helps you to see the implications bigger than you and right now. Listening for that still small voice rich luster vibrations that changes lives and direction, grants a wholeness unmatched or untouched. Recognizing all of this is within our grasp, then the question we must ask ourselves is - do we let the time consumed with an unforgiving heart just pass us by thinking because we can, we do, and that is just how it is done; is okay?.. I say, not so. We all must re-examine ourselves and re-evaluate self, so that we understand how we are spending our time tells the world more of who we are and where our focus is without us saying a word…See, Madame Guyon got it right- it is the fire of suffering that brings forth the gold of godliness. Because in our suffering the pain to get through to the other side is not a bargaining chip to be use to gain relief; it is too expensive...Obama is right, it does not matter what side you are on politically, sooner are later we all have to recognize, we cannot continue business as usual if progression is the desired goal. We cannot deny the pain of correction for the sake of being right at the expense others, or for the right to be in the ‘high seats’; this is selfish. The one holding all the marbles, controlling all the chips, and blocking all access points still dies and takes nothing but their soul to the other side. So, time has come to put aside the tragedies of yesterday, latent hits of rhetoric of today to move forward with a comprehensive initiative that not only reaches across the aisle in theory but in implementation and application because egos are left on the schoolyard where they belong. While we bring the power broker of self-sacrifice to takes center stage. Jesus, meant for us all belong to the Father and own it, for we all have the right to the robust gift of living our truth, without fear or trepidation. Otherwise, we will never overcome the evil of the self-impressed ego that reside in each of us because we never took the time to listen to the voice, the timbre, to see the gift in giving up the hold on what brings nothing but division. Letting go for the greater good grants the ultimate and the most precious…1 Kings 3:23-27- The king said, "This one says, 'My son is alive and your son is dead,' while that one says, 'No! Your son is dead and mine is alive.' Then the king said, "Bring me a sword." So they brought a sword for the king. He then gave an order: "Cut the living child in two and give half to one and half to the other." The woman whose son was alive was filled with compassion for her son and said to the king, "Please, my lord, give her the living baby! Don't kill him!" But the other said, "Neither I nor you shall have him. Cut him in two!" Then the king gave his ruling: "Give the living baby to the first woman. Do not kill him; she is his mother. (NIV)" …the heart that sees self-sacrifice allows you to let go, and is free to move forward unhindered when you aligned with the Father…It is time to be the change you wish to see without waiting on anyone, because changes begins with one person choosing to stand!

So, what are you going to do?

I am not sure what to write about today? So I am going to ramble about something that bugs me…I am wonder what do we do with the knowledge we have? The skill set we have acquired? The gifts we were given by God; you know your gifts and talents were meant to be shared, right… Are we willing to share with others? Do we take time out of our busy day to listen to someone else without trying to make them impress with us and our skills, rather seeking to be impressed with them? Are we so consumed with ‘making it big’, whatever that means to you, we fail to help others who are trying to make it too but have no guidance or direction? Do we rest on traditions, what we are use to, as a compass because it easy, and hope someone else does the work so you can go in? Do we think life will not catch up with us, and so our self-absorbed ways of dropping names, throwing in our degrees or expertise, and spitting out our titles or position? Can we not see no one cares about any of these things, unless it brings benefit and growth to them? What are we afraid of that we fail to share with others? Lift someone else up, not at the expense of self, but expansion of self. See lighting another candle with your light does not diminish you. It actually enhances you, and brings more light for all. Why do we wallow in our insecurities, fear, and aloofness pushing people away? Yet, we assume and proclaim we are helping but as soon as someone seeks you out for help assistance, or guidance we feign unavailability because it is not a convenient time for us. When is giving of ourselves ever convenient? Yet, we have the nerve to get upset when others do this to us? Let’s get real. Giving of self is never convenient, not always financially beneficial, or easy. However, we quickly share ourselves in ineffective endeavors which inflate our heads while diminishing our heart. We too quickly surround ourselves with others who feed our ego, but not challenge our intellect or put our integrity to the test. We shy away from, avoid with a vengeance, pretend integrity, and hide behind our intellect so that we do not have be honest with self and live our truth. Because the person who seek your knowledge, desires to learn from you, you forget to call, or reach out as you see their greatest before they do; you do not want anyone else to be greater than you. What if that is your lot to help the one to be the one, does that not make you great? When will we get it, the most precious thing we have in this life is ourselves and our time…John 3:17, yeah 17 not 16 states - For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him (NIV). Christ came to save the world and he did it through sacrifice of self and time in order to reach out to others. For He realized the reward of reaching out to those who sought him out, and those who needed him was necessary, although it was not always easy, convenient or followed the tradition of that day…So, when are we going to begin living, giving and being the example of Christianity we teach, preach, and sermonize about, or we just going to let the darkness swallow us whole slowly with delays because it is not easy for us…Psalm 103:17-18 - But from everlasting to everlasting the LORD's love is with those who fear him, and his righteousness with their children's children- with those who keep his covenant and remember to obey his precepts (NIV)…So, what are you going to do…as for me, I am going to live, as hard as it is, as inconvenient as it will become, the precepts, how about you?...

God is neither Historical and Hysterical:

Well I pray this entry find you doing well. Today at church, the minister said something that kind of stuck with me, so I decided share. God is neither hysterical or historical; wow…Meaning He does not over react because of a short fuse or sensitivity base on someone actions or statements. Historical meaning he has a short memory, not a bad memory; he chooses to forget and not hold our iniquities and indiscretions against us; he is not like man. He simply choose to let things go; he has a heart of forgiveness…Now the questions we have to ask ourselves is – why are we so hysterical, dramatic, quick to go off in certain or all areas that strike us wrong, unnecessarily? Also, historical, what good does it do for us to rehash what has happened in the past to us or against us, when we fight or try to make a point? Then I recognized, we choose because of unresolved issues; lessons not learned; less than authentic lives, we live; and self imposed insecurity and fears. Why? We value the opinions of others, more than we value God infallible truths, we want to impress others with ‘me’ and forget we have a choice in who we believe or gravitate to; free will. See the old school yard chant of - it is not what you are call, but what you answer to; we choose or accept what is true. Yet, we cannot help ourselves. This result from us denying our weaknesses, and putting them in a dark, dank, hidden places with shameful label. Thus, we have triggers, so when someone get close to it with words, action, or touch it, unbeknownst to the person, we react. All because we forgot, we are told by our savior in our weakness, he is strong. This is only difficult because we deny the truth of who are…hmmmm

Therefore, it is easier to be hysterical to redirect and create confusion by being hysterical andhistorical; God is not the author of confusion, Satan is. Now, we can identify why the madness ensues and strife, division develops because the our focus is askewed…While we go historical because we do not comprehend, truly, God takes all things ( good/bad, depressing/exciting, and abundance/lack times to teach, reach, bless, draw,) to equip us. He cannot do so because we focus on the wrong thing, self. God never focus on self, it is always our good. Yet, we focus on man, and the popular opinion polls we hear. See both Hysterical and Historical are both self-destructive mind-set fertilizing the breeding grounds for malice. So ask yourself, why do I go historical and get hysterical? Think about it, it does not improve anything, only make all things worse. ..Prov. 4:24-26 Don't let your mouth speak dishonestly, and don't let your lips talk deviously. Let your eyes look forward; fix your gaze straight ahead. Carefully consider the path for your feet, and all your ways will be established. Don't turn to the right or to the left; keep your feet away from evil. (HCSB)..Think about it Hysterical or historical neither of them serves a purpose BUT GOD saves!

Forgiveness and trust

I came across this book, as I search for books to assigned to my student for an educational development emphasis- Island of Saints: A Story of the One Principle That Frees the Human Spirit by Andy Andrews. Although this book, like most book can and will not appeal to all, it has a wonder message about forgiveness. See, to live a life of anger, bitterness, and unforgiveness is to live a life which is weak, powerless, and poor. This is not a cliché or rhetorical, it is really true. When we cannot forgive, it infects us with a madness that worms its way slowly, intently, and all consuming manner into all aspects of our life. It stays with and accompanies us on every encounter masked in another face but it is really deep-seated unforgiveness within that has taken up residence and forgotten about by owner of the house, our soul. We continue to misunderstand how poignant, bitter, and nasty it is. It takes resident with the other deep dark unflattering secrets had because we are true with ourself…The forgiveness housed in our soul changes us on the inside, and manifest itself on the outside. We carry this monkey on our back and utilize it as a weapon, tool of choice used to justify our own unrival heavy emotions giving guidance to our every thought, actions, and decision made. Does it stop you from being successful, accomplished, marrying, parenting, achieving, etc? The answer is no, but it limits you, it pushes people away and/or keeps them at a distance? Forgiveness allows you to be more patience, and not have a mindset part paranoid and part fear fueled. It is because we fail to understand this simple truth about forgiveness. It frees you but forgiveness does not mean you automatically trust again. Trust has to be built up over times once it is destroy or tainted, and forgiveness allows it to come to pass. Forgiveness opens, expands the horizon to encompass faith, not fear.



When it comes to forgiveness, we act as if God wants us to subject ourselves to be hurt over and over again; not true. He does desire us to love, forgive, and have faith without reservation that He knows what is best for us. Remember what happened to Adam and Eve when they ate fruit, they were forgiven, but HE put them out of the garden because he could not trust them anymore because of their behavior; they had consequences and love. Did God stop loving, providing for them, helping them, blessing them, you get the picture, and the answer is no. He did not stop anything. Were there consequences for the violation of trust, yes, and it was done in a loving and redeeming manner. Only time heals, and only God can restore, absence of God loving way, we are lost in abyss floundering and haphazardly finding our way. Problem with this is we are cannot produce or find it again because the first time was an accident…WOW! What a revelation there…See we got the forgive but do not forget from the not trusting, but we once again got it wrong we are malicious and negative with our intent, not loving; we do not get it…But understand something, individuals walking around with hurt, unforgiveness in their heart, will hurt you, and unless you are directed by God to deal with them, don’t draw them near love them from afar.. And if directed by God to draw them near, then you must be ready to obey his every instruction when it comes to them. Otherwise, it will be a disaster because they are self-destructive and will bring this destructive focus to those around them…Decide to forgive and understand what it means to trust…Lam 3:40 – 42 - ‘Let's take a good look at the way we're living and reorder our lives under God. Let's lift our hearts and hands at one and the same time, praying to God in heaven "We've been contrary and willful, and you haven't forgiven. (MSG)’

Who is there when you blow up?

Well today as I contemplate this scary walk of faith before me, I decided to stand naked and needy before the Father and say ‘Here I am’. Understanding this, my journey, no matter how crazy it seems to me, the process is preparation for my future role. So, I have come to some conclusions as I begin to be comfortable in my own skin and sensibilities. I began thinking, let me be honest, began having trepidation about it. Why? Well, ironically it was not money, it was about who would be there for me. Who would be real with me? Who do I confide in so that I can be feed? Who is not intimidated by who I am and what I do? Yes, people tell you, they will be your accountability partner, life coach really, but when things begin to grow, and you grow, people forget this. See it is very hard to be the ‘get real’ conscience for anyone with certain gifts, status or wealth. No one wants to tell them you bleed just like me, you can be wrong, and you do not get everything you want, your way. To have someone who is not impress with you, and keeps you grounded…this might sound crazy for some people but think about it, or ask any celebrity. Finding a celebrity will be hard for most of us, so I suggest asking your pastor or minister. It becomes quite difficult for them. To find someone who is there for them without malicious intent but allowing heart. See, a few things must happen - 1) The willingness to be open to the person without fear, 2) the person understanding being this person is enduring and hearing information not always pleasant or puts him/her in the not so positive light, and 3) there has to be immutable or incorruptible trust. Believe me there is going to be some heavy lifting on this person part. I know, I have done this and some days I am so overwhelmed I think, I am in a state of depression; and it is not about me…WTH! Is that about?...lol…Think about it, when people are coming to you all the time to get advice, divulge their ugliness, needing to be consoled, wanting to be in your presence because who you are, seeking guidance, etc; draining you. Yeah, you need someone to talk to. But who do you talk to? Your partner gets tired of hearing you, and they should not be the person, you almost need a sponsor like recovering addict has in AA. Because some days, it is just that serious of issue for you, and the person you love cannot bear all that madness; believe me. So, who do you talk to? See, everyone wants the success, the money, fame, status, but no one count the cost of it and what the trade out is…I am scared, and it is not even funny anymore because denying my gifts is not an options for me. So, I am taking toddler steps until I find my balance but hell I am walking in my destiny…Maybe I am the only one with this type of crazy thoughts, or the only one willing to be naked and needy before God and man so that I can move forward…

Then I ran across these verses Isa. 30:20-21 - Although the Lord has given you bread of privation and water of oppression, He, your Teacher will no longer hide Himself, but your eyes will behold your Teacher. Your ears will hear a word behind you, "This is the way, walk in it," whenever you turn to the right or to the left. (NASB)…then warm tears from my heart rolled down my cheeks, and I realize my Father would provide for me, if I am open to him and His way..This is not easy, but it is the blessed way…You just have to believe without reservation, and trust the truth you speak into others lives..So, ask yourself were you born for such a time as this to be honest and willing spirit for God…

You matter and make a difference

Whether you agreed, liked or thought he was right MLK did something that changed this great country; we call America. All because he was willing to do the hard thing - followed the called upon his life. His resiliency to share love and non-violence so the wall of fear, oppression, and hate could fall, but all benefit. The self-will and control to not respond with the same contempt he was addressed with, rather he response was grace laced humility dialogue that rival and required everyone to take notice. See his life culminated both legacy and longevity,  he challenged all to make room for others unlike ourselves,  and to entertain dialogue with mutual respect. Not an advocate for the continuous generational curse that settles for contention and strife as it companion. Instead with the sacrifice of humanity's blood, his spirit too, after his expiration, rings forth with a truth that cannot be denied or ignored and rises like the phoenix bird out of the ashes; he opted to be civil in an uncivil and fixed fight. The blood soaked grounds where white blood of varioius ethnic backgrounds and black blood of african descendents comingled for one purpose -all would have the right to live their destiny in the light. For we are not an island in and of ourselves but our success intertwined with someone else's destiny. If you do not think so, let me take you down a walk and remember black altered the country as we know - Michael Jackson (the gift that keeps on giving), Oprah, Lil'Wayne, Johnsons, Michael Jordan,etc. I think we see how color should not matter when the goal is progression, desire is peace, and love grants forgiveness....Yet, we cannot speak of MLK without speaking of JC- Jesus Christ. Jesus, is, was, and always for Christian, the example, the model we should pattern our lives after. Color did not play a role in His loving mankind nor the madness we allow to separate us today.. He loves the person; self-sacrifice for the person, and put the needs of others first before comfort and ease; He sought the heart. He was not condemning but sought to save and only really gotten angry twice that is in the bible - once at the temple and the other at the cross (go search you will find it); both times was over our self-destructive behavior we had embrace over godiliness. Jesus showed us one person following after God's call upon their life can change the world, and they will leave both legacy and longevity for future generations. See both JC and MLK were born to die, the difference was JC knew how, and why, MLK didn't. MLK walked beyond his fear and debilitating mental illness, and gave rise to a new hope, life altering spirit,and immutable example of obedience...For MLK knew and trust what Jesus taught -Matthew 16:24-26-Then Jesus said to His disciples, "If anyone wishes to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow Me." (NASB) and Luke 16:13 - No servant can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and Money." (NIV)...So, remember you matter and make a difference....